Sunday, April 15, 2012

I’m Not Blind

Good morning friends. Yet another beautiful day outside and I feel like blech!

This too eventually will pass…right? Right!

Something I have been battling with since December was my internal feeling of failure…giving in….being defeated by having weight loss surgery. It is not that way at all though. It is simply a tool. A drastic, potentially dangerous tool I admit, but a tool none the less.

Am I weak for admitting I need this tool? I thought so at one time.

Am I a failure for proceeding down this path of surgery? I think not!

Will this be a cure to my obesity? Ummm if I thought that I would be in such a place of denial! That I am not.

The initial weight loss is such an encouraging time. One to embrace and use to ones advantage. To take that strength and move more.

I realize now obesity is a disease in itself and I have tried curing it so many times on my own. I have not been able to so it is not a failure to accept another tool to help me conquer this battle.

I am also well aware that I need to work on reasons as to why I got this way. To work on my head. I am already doing that.

I am learning to do this…love yourself

I am keenly aware of the risks of surgery…thus my panicking and cancelling my surgery back in December. This is a personal decision, one that I appreciate input but understand I am absolutely not going into this blind. I have researched this quite a bit and am continuing to do so. I certainly have seen many possible bad things that may happen after surgery. I also know obesity in itself is a risk daily. A simple fall can cause massive injuries, sometimes permanent ones. So either way really is a risk and that is how I see it.

I started a list of reason as to why I want this HERE. Those are really only a drop in the bucket as to the why’s.

Don't forget just a few more days left to enter my giveaway HERE.

Have a great Sunday all!

Until next time…


"Success is not final. Failure is not fatal. It's the courage to keep going is what counts." Winston Churchill


Trish @IamSucceeding said...
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fabkate said...

yeah, about 2-4 weeks out is when you're off pain meds,  and you start feeling how rough it is to eat on time, get in your protein and fluids.  It's a struggle, and also some people who feel good try to eat things their pouch isn't ready for (which makes you pretty sick pretty fast!).    I figure it's like giving birth. You have all that discomfort, pain, and all of a sudden there's something beautiful and you forget all about the stuff that you went through to get it.

Trish @IamSucceeding said...

That is a great way to look at it.

Holly Rose said...

I did not realize you were pre surgery.  Well let me just encourage you and say I totally relate to all the things you said! I was scheduled for surgery back in 2006 and I canceled it.  I ended up gaining another 100 or so pounds during the years until I finally decided to go for it.  I can honestly tell you I have never regretted it.  My only regret is not doing it sooner.  Of course you are right there are risks but the way I see it htere are risks to being obese.  I am going to be cheering you on!!

Trish @IamSucceeding said...

Thank you Kate I know you are right. The only time I have heard anyone saying they regret surgery they are only 2 -4 weeks out from surgery. Even some that have has some pretty scary things happen due to the surgery.

Iamkarlam said...

Go visit Lap Band Girl, she ROCKS!!!

Danielle Lawrence said...

You know yourself best. I absolutely don't think surgery means you've failed. Surgery represents your bravery and readiness for change. Good luck :) 

Trish @IamSucceeding said...

Exactly the conclusion I have finally come to regarding the risks too. Thanks for being there to cheer me on...I am doing the same for you!

fabkate said...

I know how hard it is... and the last minute feeling of fear that can lead one to cancel...  but I don't know anyone, no matter how rough the go was, that says "I'm sorry I got WLS"

I know people think this is a cop out or the easy way out.  Let me tell you, there's nothing easy about it.  It takes courage and dedication.  It only LOOKS easy because the weight comes off so fast.   

The thing is, it works... and for some of us, it's THE life saving option.