I did it.
I did it.
I did it.
I re-joined Weight Watchers for the last time! I will make lifetime…yes I will!
Psst…hey Val and Sonja I do not plan on telling anyone here locally OK? At least not for a while because I need to do this for me and focus on what I need at this point. ok? This includes my kiddos and Kevin. I want them to see a difference in me first…then I will tell them. So please keep this to yourselves.
Last Friday I took the plunge and did it. I got my materials and am working out a time I can make the meetings regularly. It will probably be Wednesday mornings starting next week…kids are home this week…Hubs is still not back to work yet either so it will not be right now.
I do like some things that have changed this year with the program and after reading over some of the material it hit me!! I have been trying to run a marathon race without ever training or running a smaller race first! I dive right in expecting too much too soon. Not taking things in a progressive manner.
So I am going to begin “training” taking things progressively and one step at a time, trying to enjoy this process and making life changes that are doable for me as I go.
I welcome this with open arms!
One other thing a few years ago when I did so well I was doing it just for me because I had hit a wall…I am there again and know I need to go this road alone. That is when I was so successful. Not being alone…not getting support but fully doing it for me, by myself. I know to some this might sound contradictive but it is not. I have wound up dependent on someone else when I have a “partner” with this weight loss “race” and find when they change or give up or do not want to do it anymore I quit too. Thus the reasons I need to go and be part of this without anyone being my partner in crime. I sincerely hope I do not offend anyone or hurt feelings I just know me and I want and NEED to succeed in this effort.
I need encouragement and cheering. In this I need to be the center of my weight loss universe. If this sounds selfish it may be. It is the way it has to be.
Have a great day!
Trish
You have no idea how big a smile this post put on my face! Girl....I am in the same place...maybe..just maybe that is the whole I am worth it thing....I have, myself, been looking at plans, weighing all the options, and planning my next steps...running a marathon race without the training...the discipline...the tools..
ReplyDeleteBig Hug and Thank you for being the wonderful YOU that you are!
I just found your blog. I totally understand what you are saying. I joined WW in February 2011...my mom joined in October 2011. By October, I had lost 75 pounds. Right before Christmas I made it to 83 pounds down. Then the reality of trying to WW for myself and WW for my mom at the same time hit me and I have been struggling ever since. I thought it would be encouraging to have an at home WW buddy, but rather I feel like it distracts me from ME! I still have 70-90 pounds to lose so I am about half way there. I have not given up on myself or my journey. I refuse to go back to where I started...I will reach my goals...some days I think it will take me longer because of the struggles with my mom being a WW and all of the health issues she and my dad have. It is hard enough to be a parent, a wife, and a WW...add in being a WW for someone else and being a parent to your parents...eeek! Now wonder I am always exhausted! Good luck on your journey.
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! Just take it one day at a time!
ReplyDeleteBRAVA Trish! And you have hit on something that is near and dear to me...the idea that we have to figure this out on our own. And it is NOT selfish...in fact, it's the opposite of selfish. The more you dig in and understand yourself, the greater the rewards will be! The more you know yourself, the more you can be yourself. And the more you are yourself, the less selfish you become. I hope this makes sense. :-)
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