Making a Change

Tomorrow is June 1st! WOW! The time has flown by, completely.

OK I have this decision that I am still pondering, you know the one of do I diet for weight loss or to achieve overall good health. As I stated here it should be a no brainer, easy flat out answer. But it is not. I have this internal fear of not trusting myself without limits. Limits whether they be calories or points or whatever, boundaries to know I am doing a "diet". But then the real question is do "I diet" or do "I eat healthy"? Can I compromise, balance and do both?

Now enter this awesome post! It made/makes so much sense to me, I thought it helped me firmly resolve to the eating healthy, or clean, however you want to put it. But I am still not sure. I want to trust me, myself. However it is me(myself) that got me to the weight I am today. It is me(myself) that lost almost 60 pounds only to regain 1/2 of that back. It is me(myself) I do not trust, not the science or the understanding around it. So I AM determined to put a plan in motion tomorrow one way or the other. Doing this challenge with the FabFatties is good, it is helping get in some basic healthy things daily, yesterday was a really good day as far as that goes.

So here lies a real test. I am finally realizing(I know I can be a bit slow) this is more of a mental game than what I eat(not that WHAT I eat is NOT important). Remember I did pose a question I did not 100% understand in this post about people that did eat, well NOT the healthiest of food choices, and still dropped the pounds. Well if you factor in the whole mental aspect of any "diet" or lifestyle change for that matter, I get it! You can do it many ways, some work for some and not others. Why, yes science is in there but our mindset is so much more powerful and I have finally come to that realization (again I also realize it has been right in front of me and I am a bit slow on the uptake).

Today my job is to mentally prepare myself for a real lifestyle change. One of a fit, healthy person. To place my mindset in one that I know I CAN do it, I CAN make this change, one to eating healthy, exercising and taking care of myself, my body and more importantly (I am a Mom remember) my family (my family will always come first in my life, right after our creator, it's just who I am). I will mentally prepare to embrace this lifestyle change and to take change to my body as it comes, accept that it will be a slow change, one with bumps along the way.

The power of the pen(or keyboard in my case) is a wonderful thing. Writing this, reading and rereading to make sure my spelling is correct, grammar is correct(as much as I can remember from school :) ) THAT THIS is helping me prepare my mind already. I have more to do but I am beginning to believe I CAN make this work, that my body will change (for the better) and the weight will come off. I need to focus on one step at a time, not the entire journey (keep reminding myself of this), that way it does not look like I will NEVER get there. Mini goals, small steps and one at a time.

Visuals are good for me, especially as reminders or to gage things. SO with that thought I am going to try to remember to photo journal my daily eats(NOTE TO SELF:bring camera with you always). This was a great tool I utilized in the past and want to do so again. So click then sip(or bite). Sorta the same type of motto Weight Watchers has used for many years "If you bite it, write it" to remind its members to journal what they eat.

Persistence...not perfection...I CAN DO IT!!